I was seriously thinking that I would never be able to have sex; find a lover, or husband that can accept me for who I was. My case is slightly different from others. I was not in a relationship at the time nor sexually active. One day, the warts started to show up in my cervix area. I was in panic and told my doctor that I was not in a relationship, and I was not having sex with anyone.
She explained to me that a lot of time HPV virus can take years to show symptoms, so it would be impossible to tell who infected me. That did not matter much at the time anyway since I went home and cried in despair and hopelessness. Who would accept me knowing that I carry HPV viruses? I would never have a healthy relationship for the rest of my life, or even having sex because of those genital warts.
I was consumed in desperate thoughts and depression. The confidence I had about myself was utterly shattered. That worst part of my life went on for a while until I found out about a local HPV support group. Figured I could not go on by myself with the struggle anymore, I decided to drop my shame and went to one of their meetings. Everyone was very supportive and some even looked happy and content with their life. The topic for that day was about treatments that everyone use.
I was recommended to try out this topical cream called VidaroX, and apparently it was working for many people in the group. I went home feeling so happy because I felt like I have finally found a way out of this dark tunnel.
The VidaroX package came in 3 days after I ordered it on their website. I was also having an outbreak at the time as well so I immediately put the white cream on.
The first thing I noticed as I went on with my day was the irritation from my warts was not there anymore and I felt much more comfortable. After the first night, the redness and the severity of my genital warts visibly decrease. I tried not to get my hopes up but I was tremendously happy. After 4 day of using VidaroX, my warts completely subsided!
I called the friends that I have met at the meeting and thanked them from the bottom of my heart. My confidence as well as my self-esteem significantly went up after that because I learned that if I followed safe protocols while not having a breakout, the chance of me infecting other is very low. I started to date again and there had been a lot of ups and downs. I always told them about my conditions as well as what we had to do in order to keep the virus at bay.
Some stayed for a little bit then left while others just straight up rejected me. Then I met my current boyfriend.
He completely accepted me for who I am and now we have been in a relationship for almost a year. I always carry a Vidarox little container with me now and it also makes me feel more confident knowing that I have a solution for my outbreaks which at this point is really rare.
You will find support in a lot of places more than you think. Also, let me be the evidence that you can still have a normal dating life and a healthy relationship just like anybody.